Rain on my parade

I've come to a realisation recently.

Every job I've ever had, someone has vouched for me before applying. I've always had some level of assistance in getting the job.

This latest job followed that. And honestly, there's no real problem with that occuring. If that's how it worked out, it is how it is.

However, under that pretence, it makes sense why the job I applied for in the fall didn't work out. I had no vouch and had to make it on my own. And unfortunately, I didn't make the cut.

That job has appeared again and again in the classifieds online. My mom keeps bugging me about applying again for it. And my dad has now taken to reminding me that my new job is not going to pay any bills. Which is real grand since I haven't even started the damn thing yet, let alone being now pressured by both with thinking about other work and making something of myself.

Because clearly I haven't been trying. No. No. I moved here because I didn't try. I got through uni because I didn't try. I help my mother DAILY because I don't try.

I had to write this post because I'm all fuelled up on frustration. I normally run on quite a bit of frustration. I'm stuck in New City trying to work towards getting a solid paying job. And my own place. And my own vehicle. And someday hope to live with my gf. Which speaking of the LDR takes it toll. But not as much a toll as the plethora of appointments and chores. It's hard to feel like an adult when you're viewed as a manchild.

Tl;dr I'm proud of me getting my new job, even if my parents apparently are not.

Pivotal

Big news: I got hired!!
My new job will have training and start late summer.
It is an industry job and a paid position making it a solid start for my future.
Special Thanks to Dyland.

More posts coming soon ok bye

May May

I have my suit all measured out for the wedding in June. I had to get measured and send in the details since the place I'm renting from has no locations in New City. We makin' it work though!
I've also been asked/promoted to Co-Emceeing the wedding (I think it's Co-) so though it'll be nerve wreaking, it should also be pretty fun! ( I mean I took classes on every aspect of it so it's not outside my abilities, but I always sweat when the spotlights on me. In fact I full spaghetti out of the pocket. Even today I spilled a drink and a person who was close by see it happen and yeah I went red as an tsundere animu grill)

In other news I've been spending most of my time even more addicted to MC LP stuff lol. It's a bad habit but I'm always so fascinated by the design and programming work. Not to mention the server that most of what I'm watching has been recently reset and now has a story-line aspect to it too. I hate causing drama, or dealing with drama, but watching it in a video game with Youtubers in a faux sense...I enjoy maybe apparently.

 I really need to kick my own butt and work on some legit stuff though. I toil with ideas but I keep biting big ideas. Lately I'm trying to learn how to make a game in Unity, which at least there's good tutorials out there. The tough part is focussing, and remembering, and well... I mean what I want to do in unity requires learning concepts that will glaze over what I want to do and I need to keep doing that over and over til I have a handle on the actual things I need to make my project. Which is an undertaking in and of itself. Might try to make animations or something in the meantime maybe. I still wish I could make more BP, but with BP not swearing, with the characters not blatent copyright infringements, with a good storyline and comedy on point. Rule 53, as it were...